The first four months of 2018 have felt like progress and defeat all at the same time to me. I started out the year with some big goals and some even bigger dreams. And along the way, I’ve gotten scared, wondered if we can make it all happen, and doubted my ability to really follow through.
But that’s the thing about big dreams isn’t it?
They tend to hover overhead, just out of reach, taunting you into wondering if you have what it takes.
I think the enemy likes big dreams. I think he likes to send his little soldiers appropriately named fear and doubt directly towards our hearts. I’ve noticed that when I’m binge watching Netflix or mindlessly scrolling social media, the devil doesn’t give me too much trouble. He heckles me sometimes about those couple cupcakes I ate last week but if I’m not walking towards big goals and dreams, he pretty much lets me be.
But those dreams….the plans and the goals and the making myself better part…all that seems to really rile him up. And I bet the same thing happens to you.
You know when you want to change something and you really step into it, and you make a plan and set a goal, what always happens? Opposition. Those little devil soldiers come marching right in trying to tell us we’re not good enough to change or that we’re not disciplined enough or talented enough or pretty enough or blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
They’re lies my friends. All lies.
This year, as I’ve stepped into the big God sized dreams we have for our life, I’ve felt the opposition more than I ever have. And it’s staring to really tick me off. I’m over it. I’ve learned that we can choose to be over it and start to ignore the lies that get pushed into our head from the enemy. We can choose to live in the victory that Christ gave us on the cross. To me, opposition has become one more reason to fight hard and then harder still.
I refuse to let mediocrity lead my life. I truly believe we were all made for more than average.
I believe you were made for greatness, friend.
But are you walking in greatness? Or are you choosing to shrink to mediocrity? I’m not asking to point blame or tell you how much you suck. Mostly I’m asking myself.
I said I was going to start writing a book this year.
Have I started? Nope.
Have a made a million excuses as to why I don’t have time to write? Yes.
Regardless of how things have gone so far this year for you or for me, there is always now. From now on things can be different. We can choose to rise to the greatness we’re called to live in.
Will it be messy? Of course. Will we mis-step? Obviously. And we’ll make a mess of things and make mistakes and doubt ourselves over and over again.
The devil’s little soldiers will charge forward on full attack. You living up to your potential, using your gifts and talents to further the kingdom of God….that’s the kind of living the devil will try to take out. But guess what? The devil’s fighters don’t have power over you! You’re the only one who gets to choose how far their advances go.
So today, after having not written on this blog for 9 months, I’m saying ENOUGH. I have victory to claim through Jesus Christ and so do you.
For me, that means I have to start writing again. I’ve let the devil tell me I have nothing of value to say for far too long. So from now, I’m a writer again. And I get to stand up and decide that because I’m the daughter of the King of the world. And you can make the same kind of decisions.
Will I be great at it? Who knows. I’ll probably suck for a while.
Will I have to fight for the time and mental space to write? Oh yeah…..like a soldier.
But from now on, I’m a fighter. And I think you should be a fighter too.
Your fight is probably different than mine. But it’s a fight worth fighting.
What is your heart yearning for?
What did you used to love to do as a child that you stopped doing?
What do you dream about doing or becoming?
Where do you want to go?
Who do you want to serve?
Where do you want to give more?
Maybe it’s time for all of us to dream again.
And now, what you waiting for? Netflix and social media will always be there to distract you from living the life you’re called to. I believe you’re called to big, beautiful things. I don’t think those dreams in your heart are random or selfish or unimportant. I think they’re worth fighting for.
So what is it for you?
What is it time to fight for?
Let’s go to war, friends.
You know where you can find me. I’ll be here, or at home, or on the road, but from now on, I’ll be writing about all of it.